its over when it hasnt even began.

again.

i couldnt make her see it. what i have tried to give was never enough. what i wanted to take proved to be too much. she wants to be pampered, wants to be loved, wants to be given everything even if it means returning nothing.

i couldnt do that.

i had lost the courage to.

i was hurt once. for giving too much. for not expecting anything in return. for believing making her happy was all that matters at the expense of my own. i was slapped with the harsh truth that she never equates my actions to love worth giving for. right in my face. never. i started telling myself i was foolish. i was naive. i was plain nice. so nice it bores the hell out of her. i had lost that belief. i thought i would never ever do such things again. never.

and then i met her. 2 years down the road.

something was rekindled in me. i was finding that "foolish" side of me again. things that i have done made me realise its hard for a person to change. but this time round i was afraid that history is gonna repeat itself. i needed an assurance. i admit i do. that all i have done will at least bring me that tiny step closer to the heart. i wanted to know she was happy then. but i couldn't make her see it.

unconditional? you question what. you question how. you question why.

but now you will never find an answer anymore. it has ended just as it has begun. ehh no. there was probably never a beginning in the first place.

i think i've already lost you.

if God was the one who brought me to you, then God has just taken me away from you.

wish you well girl.